I've spent a good time of my day going back and forward with you exactly because I want to understand with you keep defending Colombia cooperated with fascists when they did not.

They had people there, in need of help, in the hands of very bad actors.

What were their options? Abandon those people? Become as bad as the fascists in the process? Worst, in my view. A fascist is an enemy, someone who abandons their kin is a traitor of the worst kind.

What was Colombia supposed to do, in your view? Give me a straighforward answer, not a circular comeback as you have been giving. Blurting you do not want nazis to ethnic cleanse is not an answer to my question.

The fascist american regime (not Nazi; that was the late National Socialist Party of Germany) is currently expelling foreigners by force. I am sure many have already died but we are not seeing mass graves and killings of elements of certain population groups. Be intellectualy honest, please. I am engaging in good faith.

No one here is saying they support that cadre of criminals. No one is attacking you or your position.

I was pretty sure I gave you a straight answer multiple times, but apparently everything I say is wrong lately, so I guess this is just one of all of those times.

Doesn't matter, we'll all probably dead in a year anyway. If I'm lucky, it will be less than five for me as it is.

That was unnecessarily cruel towards yourself.

Have I been engaging you in bad faith? Have I resorted to insult or personal attack? If so, that was uncalled for and I sincerely apologize.

I'm too stupid to know what that's supposed to mean, but I'm sure whatever it means I deserve it.

You're free to tell me to fuck off and die too, it's also what I deserve.

Yes. Seriously.

You're talking to someone who's lesbian daughter is going to end up in a conversion therapy camp because he's too much of a fuckup to take advantage of emigrating to the UK because he was stupid enough to think he could actually save her life.

I mean I don't know why you keep talking to me, but...

Good news though: when that does inevitably happen, you will be free of me forever.

Why do you care? Anyway, I am in the UK already. I'm just fucking it all up like I fuck everything up. And when we run out of money and have to go back to the U.S. and she gets put in a camp, it will be my fault.

And when that happens, be sad for her torture and be happy I won't be around to fuck up the world anymore.

Because empathy costs nothing, yet it is so hard to see it be spent.

Because I take no joy of seeing another human being suffer.

Because I want to show, even if only for a brief and fleeting moment, concern for you and your troubles.

Because I want to.

Why is going back the only option? Can't you work there?

Using a gif for a visual cue of my mental state isn't trolling. It's just me lacking words to perfectly express myself.

I'm not going to arm wrestle you to decide if I'm putting up a fake caring facade or if I'm being honest. That is solely up to you.

And to borrow your words: you are free to stop talking to me and be rid of me for ever.

I didn't say you were free to stop talking me and be rid of me forever. I said when my daughter gets taken away from me, the universe will be rid of me forever.

Should have been rid of me forever before she was even born honestly.

But why will your daughter be taken from you?

Again, isn't it possible for you to stay in the UK indefinetely? Just settle there? Or perhaps on some other european country?

But can't your daughter apply for a work visa herself? Or a school one?

And what are your skills? If my countrymen, dumb as doorknobs go there and find work, it can't be that hard.

She's 14, so no work visa. And there's no such thing a grade school visa.

As far as my skills, years of media production and post production, but between chronic health issues and having to put my daughter in online school due to severe bullying, I am 5 years behind the times and, unsurprisingly, no one is interested.

She's too young, obviously. But being so young is she in risk of deportation? Families tend to enjoy a bit more liniency.

You may be a bit outdated but I'm going to risk you are not "unusable". I can't fathom what you actually do but there must be something you can do with those skills.

Yes, she is only here on a travel visa. She can stay a maximum of six months until she's here illegally.

And you would think there would be something worth hiring me for, but apparently not.

Strange laws. Children from immigrant families can enroll to school in my country even while their families are waiting for have their requests processed to become declared immigrants.

Squid, I'm going to be level with you. I risk we're in the same time zone. It's getting late and I've been awake since four a.m.; I'm running on fumes here.

Feel free to message me if you feel like chatting a bit. I spend way too much time here, under the excuse of getting some information in my head.

Keep trying, both for work and for a way to get your daughter to be safe there, here, in Europe, permanently. Please, Squid. From a father to another. We can never give up.